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took some pictures for the grad nite presentation.
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bitch corps LOL
andrew lai xuan en. CHMA finals. duet & band.
I DARE U COME IN THAT.
omfg i am so -.-
ian grows boobs
the smiles.

charity
Charity

The sun beat down relentlessly on my back while I moved the bricks over to the other side. The sky was cloudless, the sea is calm, the birds are chirping happily on the trees overhead. After I unloaded the bricks from the wheelbarrow onto the pile in front, I stretched my aching muscles and looked to the skies. Oh, how good this life is! I thought wistfully. I thought back to when I first came to this land.

Acheh was originally a beautiful place of history and traditional culture. After being ravaged by the recent tsunami, it was in ruins. The usually populated and lively streets were void of any life, the backyards of the houses absent of the sounds of children playing around.

Witnessing this funereal scene myself, I could not help but sympathise with the locals. At first, I had wanted to come to Acheh with my friends, in a bid to escape the urban hustle-bustle. It seemed like a good idea at that time, to come help with the relief efforts, devoting these few weeks to charity. When I arrived, I was glad that I did make the decision to come. The scene at the refugee site was dreary. The locals were sprawled on the floor, some hugging together for more warmth, some openly crying, bemoaning the loss of their beloved homes. Originally, I thought that we would be received as heroes, as their saviours. Then after seeing them in such a state, I knew then, that I was wrong. What these people needed were not saviours, nor heroes, they needed help. Honest, sincere help from people who really cared, not from people who only wanted to gain fame through charity.

While we waited for the construction materials to be sent over from the mainland, we mingled amongst the locals and even made a few close friends. From them, I got to know the rich culture and history of Acheh, Indonesia. Then, Mother Nature took it all away from them in a night with a devastating tsunami crashing down from above, washing away all their lives. It was like pulling the rug from underneath, you just fall down on the floor, and you are hurt everywhere. This was the situation of the locals. However, what impressed me the most was their tenacity and belief in their Gods. They believed that their Gods were testing them. They believed that they had to survive through this period of time, but they were not religious fanatics, they simply believed in the charity of their Gods, to forgive, as well as to punish, the people for their mistakes. Even through all these hardship, the locals retained their practices. They still went about their morning routines as usual, making do with what they could find from Nature.

When the construction materials arrived by helicopter, the children rushed over to look at the helicopter. We all laughed at such innocence and curiosity expressed by the children, inwardly mocking ourselves for being so cynical. Then, everyone helped with the unloading of the materials. It was only here that I witnessed what the phrase, “working together” really meant. Everyone, even the children, helped in the process, in their own little ways. These children ran back and forth the site, bringing food and water to the relief workers as well as the local men. The women worked hard in the makeshift kitchens, preparing and cooking food, enough for everyone on site.

The rebuilding process was an uphill task. To begin with, we had to first destroy the remains of the houses. In a way, this meant destroying their memories of their original lives and building new ones, with their own hands. This took us about two weeks to accomplish. Then, we had to consult the on site architect on the building process. Once everyone was briefed, we went about our jobs. In the end, my friends and I stayed past the original departure date. We felt that they needed us more. Even though we missed our families and friends in the mainland, we felt that this charity we were devoting our time to, was worth it.

Together with the locals, we laid the first brick on the land. To all of us, it was quite a momentous occasion. It was a culmination of all of our efforts for the past few weeks and at last, the real rebuilding of their lives was about to begin.

Suddenly, I was jolted back to the present by a poke in my ribs. A child was tugging at my shirt to go see something he had just found. Ruffling his hair affectionately, I followed him as he led me to his recent discovery. Looking around, I saw the village slowly taking shape with the foundations laid and the frames of the houses already built.

In a sense, my friends and I, we did rebuild our lives too. All the past misconceptions we had of relief efforts overseas as well as charity initiatives, they were all corrected by our experience in this land of forgotten beauty, Acheh. Together with its people, Acheh had shown us the true nature of man, that we were indeed pack animals to begin with, and we could actually work together without conflicts too. It is true, that tragedy unites people, now more than ever. We never did think that we could learn and achieve so much in this trip to help the refugees of Acheh. What we have learnt, what we have experienced, it cannot be reproduced anywhere else. No one else can experience what we have experienced, without being there with us. In a way, we were the privileged lot living with the refugees, not the nouveau riche enjoying small servings of caviar and chauffeured around in polished limousines.

Oh, how this experience has changed me. Not only outwardly,my tanned and more toned physique, but also inwardly, my thinking and perceptions towards certain matters. I am sure that when I return home, I will be able to live life to the fullest, and let go of my petty complaints and dislikes. Instead, building up unbreakable bonds between my family and friends, so that even tragedies will not be able to break us apart, just like the strong-willed Acheh locals who had persevered through.

so long so long
been so long since i actually blog
even tho i'm online virtually every day.
lol

oh well. it's been ss, ss, ss ,ss everyday.
and i've finished 8 ss essays already. =D
and i'm actually feeling the pressure alr.
time to start taking out the books.
brush up on my amaths and physics!
and lit? oh just gonna do my best i guess?
ss and history..i want to do my best!

hcl prelim2 this friday. it's so hard to study for hcl la.
zz and plus, argh ,chinese intensive everyday.
so boring. nothing productive.
like andrew said, staying at home self study is better than going to school and stoning during ss,english and chinese lessons. argh

english oral's on 4/6. 730. im in team2. IN THE MIDDLE. so abit sian-ed.
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hope i can do well tho. worried only about picture convo.
convo can crap thru, reading im not worried.
so. yea.

and, i'm really happy that i have you to love. truly happy. <3

lol

ok since it seems dead, fine. another essay.

hah

Heart


My footsteps echoed eerily in the empty corridor. Walking briskly to the operating theatre at the end of the corridor, I loosened my tie around my neck and released the cuff links at my wrists. I would need maximum flexibility later. As I neared the doors, I noticed the ceiling lights flickering ominously ahead. Shaking off dark thoughts, I pushed the doors opened and entered the operating theatre.

I was greeted by my colleagues and assistants. Flicking a quick glance towards the operating table, I saw a small figure under the dark green cloth. Good, I thought, they knew my style. I replied their greetings with a terse “Morning,” and continued on. Putting on the surgery attire with acquired efficiency, I was ready to begin the procedure momentarily. This was what they called me here to do. I was the head surgeon.


I could see their faces now – tense, excited. “You people ready to make this operation a success?”I asked as I looked around. The expressions on their faces seemed to have transformed into faces of determination and concentration. Soft proclamations of “I'm ready” were audible through the surgery cap I wore. Breathing out heavily, I said, “Okay, let's begin! Chelsea, flick the switch.” My assistant went to the side and switched on the radio, at once, soft oceanic melodies meandered lazily into earshot.


Music is always present at all my operations; they helped calm my heart and ease the tension within. With the music in the background, I explained the procedure to the group gathered around the table. Then, they all dispersed to their respective positions and I approached the figure under the cloth, muttering to myself softly, “You're such a poor thing, getting worked on by us. Don't worry, we're going to get you all up and runnin' soon!” Apparently, Perry, my close friend and colleague, heard my mutterings and replied, “ He's not going to thank you for that..” The room soon erupted in quiet laughter. We calmed down in a few seconds and assumed our poker faces.

Applying pressure on the knife onto the patient's skin, the skin underneath gave way and split open. Immediately, blood leaked out of the freshly-made cut. The assistants rushed forwards with soft gauze and staunched the blood flow. Muttering a soft “thank you very much”, I continued with the operation. I made a deeper cut. The knife penetrated deeper into the body and soon I could see the bloody mass of muscles that was the heart. Reaching my hands outwards, the assistants quickly passed me the required tools and the procedure went on.

After what seemed like fifteen minutes of the bloody business, I muttered, “Clean the opening please” I was so focused on the procedure that I had not realised that I was drenched in sweat until after the whole operation.


For the umpteenth time, I asked, “Heart rate?” The reply was, “Normal”. Good, I thought, that meant everything was going well, so far. Now for the part of the procedure where most mistakes and infections occurred, time was of the essence now. Whether or not I could do it quickly would decide the fate of the patient under my knife. Placing a small pipe into along the patient's aorta, gently, gently...


Once the device was in place, I waited for a few seconds for the result. True enough, ten years of experience had not betrayed me. It was a success! The heart continued to beat, strongly. As I signaled to the rest of them to take over the operation from there, I retreated from the table. Holding my gloved hands up, I saw that it was red with blood. Looking down, I saw too, that my gown was stained with random splashes of red. Looking back at the table, I smiled as I saw one of the trainee surgeons finishing what I started. I caught his eye and nodded. He seemed to continue stitching the wound with more gusto than before.


Smiling inwardly, I stripped off the gown and gloves as soon as I exited the operation theatre and threw them into the disposal bin. After washing my hands thoroughly, I was headed for the staff toilets to get a quick shower, when I was stopped by Perry. “Good job back there! Didn't know it could be done like that, be sure to watch out for me, Edward. Hey, let's wait for Matthew to come out!” He said, as he slapped my back and dragged me to sit down with him on the chairs. Managing to catch my breath,I muttered a terse “Thank you”.

Sitting at the chairs, a tinge of worry overcame me. It shouldn't take Matthew this long to wake up, could the heart bypass surgery have gone wrong? I thought back to the procedure and tried to find fault with it.


Deep in recollection, I had not realised that Matthew had come out of the operation theatre until Perry pulled me up. Matthew was sprawled on the table pushed by a nurse. His tongue was out and a soft sound escaped from his mouth. “Meow...” I went forward and patted him on his furry head, taking care not to exert too much pressure on him, letting him nuzzle into my palm. “Sorry little guy, no food this time, next time alright?” I said. As if he understood me, Matthew licked my palm weakly.

Withdrawing my hand from him, the nurse nodded at me and continued pushing him to his 'ward'. Like a flower blossoming inside me, a sense of happiness filled my entire being. This was what I became a veterinarian for, this satisfaction that I get from helping these creatures. A smile spread itself across my face. Beside me, Perry gave me a quizzical expression and left me alone. Ignoring him, I thought, through my efforts, I have saved yet another life.


bored hah
felt like posting some stuff up.
dunno if it's good. haha
read =D


Pain

The corridor was white, pristine and spotless. As if inside another world, the cacophony of sounds from the city seemed to have been cut off in this place, while the whiteness of the place seemed almost too white, where the sunlight reflected off, it left burning white spots in my eyesight.

I directed my attention elsewhere. The room I was in, it was white too. I wriggled around on the chair to get a better view of the city in the window. Everything outside the window seemed so colourful , compared to this room. Everything outside seemed so much more natural, while the room seemed artificial and stuffy and oddly dreary too. Moving again, I accidentally knocked my hand into the movable metal counter beside the chair, I had not noticed it before. There were scalpels, pliers and a few odd looking knives. Scrutinising these tools, I could not put my finger on why they seemed so familiar.

The door closed with an audible click. I swiveled around, surprised, only to stare at a middle-aged man in front of the door.

“Hello son, how're we doing today?” the heavy-set man said jovially as he adjusted his collar and straightened out his pressed shirt. Then he went on to push his horn-rimmed spectacles up the bridge of his broad nose, stopping beside me for awhile, then moving on. I replied with a terse “Fine,”. He was at the opposite counter, fiddling with some bottles and tools. Without looking at me, he said, “Well, I'm glad you're fine. Give me a few minutes while I prepare. Judy's not here today,” he paused and turned around to look at me before continuing, “Oh,right. You don't know her, she's my assistant. Well, she took medical leave today, leaving poor old me to fend for myself. Sad, ain't it?” he turned back and moved on to put on white plastic gloves, pulling them until they were taut against his skin. He was smiling with his teeth showing. His teeth caught my eyes, they were shining white, almost flawless.

Then all of a sudden, prickly pain erupted across my mouth when I tried to open my mouth wider to talk. Instinctively, I tried to cover my mouth when I discovered that I had been strapped into the chair without my knowledge. I was perplexed, when did I get strapped in? Noticing this, the man walked towards me. He said, “ Well, let's begin before it hurts even more.” I had no idea whatsoever of what he was talking about. Then my eyes noticed the screwdriver-looking object beside him. Seeing that, I finally realised why I had found the tools on the table so familiar before.

This was where they called 'the dentist's'. An unprovoked sense of doom overwhelmed my entire being. The stories my friends told me of this place had been the source of my nightmares so many nights before, and now it was back to haunt me!


“This is all for your own good, son. Don't worry, it'll all be over soon.” the dentist said soothingly. I did not believe him, all the stories my friends told, they could not have been lying! He must be hiding something from me! The day before when I told my mother that my mouth was hurting, she only said that she would bring me to someplace to get rid of the pain. I must have done something to make her so angry, but what have I done?

Still struggling to get out of the chair, I yelled and screamed “HELP!SOMEONE HELP ME!”. The dentist simply smiled indulgently at me. My fears were confirmed; the stories were real, he was going to drill into my mouth and use my insides for his own wicked ends! Realising this, I tried to cover my mouth but I was restricted by the straps. I had since grown tired of screaming and yelling. The pain in my mouth had escalated to a point where it was unbearable. I remembered more of the stories – the dentist would first make the pain go away, then he would induce the most excruciating pain known to man, and then I would die.

Two burly nurses came in, they seemed to be his henchmen. By then, I was delirious with sick nervousness and as I saw the dentist advancing towards me with a weirdly-shaped object, something seemed to have snapped inside me. I surrendered.

He inserted the object into my mouth, which kept my mouth from closing properly. My teeth were exposed. I could hardly move any part of my body now. I felt a tiny pinprick of pain at the side of my mouth. Then, in my peripheral vision, I saw an empty syringe leaving my sight. The dentist's face came back into my sight, I realised that he was smiling.

“Come on now, let's get this over with. It's only an ant bite, that's all.”the dentist said in a soft voice. He had in his hands a set of silver pliers and small mirror. He moved the mirror inside my mouth for a few rounds, as if searching for something. The nurses' vaunted strength kept my legs immobile, I could not escape. Resigned to my fate, I felt my body going limp. The nurses kept their grip on me, albeit not as tight. Everything slid in and out of focus, soon, all I could feel was a throbbing headache. It was as if I was watching the scene unfolding before me from a distance away, detached from it all.

The dentist seemed to have found what he was searching for. He reached in the pliers into my mouth and caught onto something. He exerted force and pulled. The faint pain in my mouth seemed to have disappeared in an instant, only to be replaced by a light throbbing in my gum. Then, I blacked out.

After what seemed like only seconds, I opened my eyes once more, to the blinding brightness of the sun rays reflecting off the frame of the window. Instinctively, I covered my eyes. I turned the chair around and faced the room. I was just about to get up from the chair when I realised something. I could move my arms! I was not dead! Cheered by this revelation, I hugged myself and jumped off the chair. I landed on the balls of my feet, unstable.

A pair of strong hands grabbed hold of me from behind. An oddly familiar voice rang out, “Hey hey, careful now son.” A sense of painful familiarity linked the voice to a person in my recent memories. The dentist! He had not killed me yet, why? Immediately I broke away and kept my distance from him, adopting a mock-fighting stance. The dentist chuckled lightly just as my mother came in the door. Seeing her, I ran to her and hugged her tightly.

“How was my son, doctor?”My mother's genteel voice asked. “Oh, he's a feisty one. He sure struggled a lot, ma'am,” the dentist replied goodnaturedly. “Don't worry about your tooth, it'll grow back in a few weeks time. Oh, before I forget, this is for you, son.” The dentist went to his table and passed me a small bottle. “This here, is your first tooth. Keep it well, son.”

I held the bottle to the light for inspection. In it, was my 'first tooth'. It looked awfully small, compared to the dentist's. “You'll grow, and if you take good care of your teeth, you'll have nice teeth, just like me!”the dentist flashed a brilliant smile at me. His smile was infectious and soon, I forgot my recent worries, and smiled back.

Hand in hand, my mother and I left the dentist's office. I had made up my mind to tell the others of their folly. The dentist's was not a bad place at all! They had caused me so much pain by telling me those horror stories, caused me so much sleepless, tear-filled nights. We were greeted by the cheerful chirping of spring birds and bustling city life, as my mother and I exited the dentist's clinic.



POP-ed
we have POP-ed on 080509
it was rather successful i guess.
a little screw up here and there.
so i guess it wasn't perfect.
=(

it's sad, leaving the guys you know for 4 years.
they've trained, drilled, PT-ed, pumped and pretty much manymany things for 4 long years.
that last song we sang, kiss goodbye, it's meaningful. we sang our hearts out. most of us, at least.
i know i did.

this last day in CHSNPCC, we've worn our full uniforms for the last time. (most of us, at least), adjusted our berets for the last time, arranged our badges correctly for the last time, solidbang-ed for the last time, be together for the last time.

i know we'll still be in the same school, but the feeling's bound to disappear soon.
those who'll break away, will break away in the end.
the few who have stayed together will be together in the end.
but then, the squad, wont be A SQUAD anymore. the definition's blurred. words fade.
POP is many things for all of us. each of us has different definitions.

i feel what the sirs said yesterday after the concert, really got to my soul
it's hit deeply in me. the guilt of not trying our best, which led to the failure of us to hold the City Venture during our NCOship.
there have been screw ups during our annual camp, hike and POP concert.
we haven't been the best. we said we would be the best. but then we weren't. complacent, i'd say we were.

no one's perfect, i'd say. but that's an excuse.
oh well.
what's done cannot be undone. we've POP-ed. whether or not we have left behind a legacy or a bad name, is up to the rest of the batches to decide.

'kiss goodbye' that's what i'll say to CHSNPCC.
i've brought with me qualities i'd never get from other CCAs, other UGs.
i used to regret getting into NPCC. now? NO MORE.
i'm proud. it's this pride that's going to spur me on.
this pride that's going to be the strong basis on which future character traits can be built on.

30th batch CHSNPCC, we have our own squad tee.
i'll wear it. i won't and most likely cannot ever forget these 4 years in CHSNPCC as the 30th batch.

and to you guys who were the definition of 30th batch, thank you all. from the deepest reaches of my soul, thank you all.

didn't realise i could do this
okay. i am surprising myself everyday.
i'm becoming greater every passing day ^^
I ACTUALLY CAN MAKE NOTES ON HISTORY!
wow! incredible, ain't it.
heehee
small notes nia. zz

oh yes. i am going to start doing some SS essays soon.
rawr. cannot let humanities die.
and omfg. my amaths. is. gg-fied.
=( n i used to pride myself on my amaths. now it's like shit. i hate calculus.


paramore - another day
omg paramore demos are like NICE. ^^

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NA(THAN) ONG! =D

ok. today english mock exam, paper2.
hah tmr paper1(part2), sit. writing.
lol
sian

not gonna let up on the gas, gonna chiong all the way now.
=)

x men origins!
x-men origins:wolverine

SABRETOOTH

ok. went to watch xmen origins with jingrui,soh, yonghwee, kunliang ,ko, desheng and ekkiat.
omfg the movie is great!
the memories of wolverine unfolding like that. omg. damn nice.
though it would hav worked better if they showed logan actually remembering them, instead of starting out of nowhere. but oh well, it's very very exciting.
sabretooth was like uber evil. super animal man.

and wolverine is jus. so humanish yet so animalistic. damn nice.
=D
lol and silverfox. hah lame.
oh emma frost came out too. omg! hahah
the ending for the movie is seriously too...little. the way logan lost his memories..it's too.. swift. more could be done to elaborate on that.
but overall. VERY NICE.
hah

oh and did i mention? PROF X IS UBER UGLY. EUGGHH*pukes*
i love gambit's stick. lol.

k now back to studies!
humans all the way after tuition!! hah